Hear My Story (Episode 10)

HEAR MY STORY..Part 10
I didnt attend choir practise on saturday nor church
service on sunday bcos i didnt want to see Mrs Williams.I've
made up my mind not to tell her anything and i knew she
would ask me if she set her eyes on me.
I didnt know i was only adding more petrol to a burning
fire.
Some choir members came again after service to check on
me,thinking i havnt recovered fully or not strong enough to
attend service.Of course when i saw them,i pretended to be
weak still.
Bode came later in d evening when everybody had left.
He said "I knew u didnt come to church today bcs of me,not
bcs of ur health.U refuse to forgive me despite my pleas.I
told u its d work of d devil,pls let's be doing as we used to
do before..pls now"..He began to weep.
I was moved with passion when i saw him weeping.I went to
him,gave him a gentle pat on d back,and said "Dt's
okay.Stop crying.It wasnt only ur fault,but mine too.We
both need to ask God for forgiveness and make sure it
doesnt happen...."
Before i could finish my sentence,he got up,held me n
began to kiss me.Every attempt to rescue myself out of his
hand failed.At a time,i surrendered,and again....It
happened!.
Before i could put myself together,Bode dressed up and
ran out of my room.
I started weeping.
"Lord,i've done it again.I disobeyed U.I didnt yield to d
voice of d Holyspirit.What will i do now?".
For days,i was praying and weeping,asking God for
forgiveness and what to do,i didnt hear anything as i
heard it earlier.It was so obvious dt something was wrong
with me,as i was a shadow of myself.Even my dressing
changed,a 60yr old woman would dress better.
Everybody was asking,"what's wrong with u?.Hope there's
no problem.Are u still sick?".
My usual answer was "No problem,all is well"..but within
me,i knew nothing was well.
I wasnt attending mid-week services also.I would prefer to
be in my room,and be thinking.D thought dt bothered me
most was "Will God ever forgive me?.
If d first one was a mistake,what about ds one?".
Mrs Williams called me one wednesday evening after having
prayer meeting in church."Sis Sewa,i noticed u were not in
church today for d prayer meeting,how are u?.Are u not
okay yet?".
"I'm fine ma".
"Then,why have u been keeping urself away from church?".
"Nothing ma."
"U've started again.Oh!.Dt reminds me,u promised to tell
me something d other day,will u come and see me tomorrow
after school?. I will be waiting for u at d church office."
"What time ma?"
"Let's make it 4pm".
"Ok ma".
She hung up.
My heart began to beat very fast. I could hear d sound.
What will i say?. Maybe i should just cook up a
story..but,what if she knew it's all lies. Oh my God!..what
mess have i gotten myself into?. How will i get out of ds
now?.

As i was pondering over ds,my phone rang.
It was my dad.I picked it.

What did he say?.

We shall see in d next part.